A year ago I said this was going to be a good year--11 is a favorite and a lucky number. I might have to chose another favorite. This year sucked for many people. I've seen friends lose houses and businesses, and everyone's finances took a nose dive again. I have high hopes for 2012. Things have to change.
Every year I write down a few things I'd like to bring into my life for the new year. I've done this since the early 90's and I don't read it again till the next year. Sometimes it's only a word; sometimes it's a phrase. I can't say it works well--I'm still writing annually about some things I've wanted to change that still haven't, but I'll write it again tonight. Maybe I should try reading and focusing on those topics monthly this year and see if it brings about anything new. I keep it hidden away and always use the same small stocking-shaped pad of paper, so I can also look back at each year. I also try to keep it positive--instead of "don't do this", I think of what I'll do instead.
Yesterday was Matthew's birthday. I had a hard time getting him to say what he wanted to do last night--eat out? where? At one point, he told me he was going to cook. Then it was dinner out and a movie. Then walk down the street to Cafe Gibraltar. Sushi? Movie? Nothing? It made me think about how hard it is to say what we really want. I do the same hoping he'll figure it out on his own. I also wonder if he was disappointed his son didn't drop by at some point during the day. He called on his way to work, but hey, he drove down highway 1 and was within 1/4 mile of our house. He could have come over for 5 minutes to give his father a hug. It's not like Matthew hasn't been there for him through thick and thin.
By midday yesterday, I finally tried for reservations at Gibraltar, but as I thought would happen, they had only very early or very late times available. So Matthew agreed on sushi. I decided not to mention I'd been there the night before with 2 friends from the Thurs. night knitting group. I didn't even pick up the menu...it was his night to order anything he wanted. And wouldn't you know, he ordered several things we'd never had together before--and one of them was the roll I had the previous night with Michele! I still didn't tell him till half way through the meal. Dinner was good, and he was happy with the gifts I bought for him, so the day ended on an up note.
Today, the last of the year, is a good one for cleaning up loose ends--the office remodel, my inventory from Savvy Skirts, a few necklaces sitting here that need findings, paperwork for Wise Woman Weaves, etc. And then starting the new calendar, a new jewelry business program Terri recommended, some organizing...and exercise. Lots to do...I'd better make a list, so I can check off what I do and feel accomplished.
This is from last year's trunk show at Savvy Skirts, which just closed at Harbor Shoppes. Sheri returned all my inventory yesterday, which was bittersweet. I know she's planning on reopening in a better location later in 2012, so I hope to continue our relationship. She's awesome to work with and did a fabulous job with the shop--so I'll look forward to April. Her energy inspires me!
Time to start working on that list. I'll start by writing it....